Who am I? What’s my purpose? The hardest questions that we’ve ever had to answer. Sometimes I think we only try to answer these questions when we are vibrating incredibly low (like after a break up, or major life trauma), which makes it even more difficult to address. Like Who TF am I? I have no idea! You tell me! And then the cycle starts of allowing other people to determine who we are.
It’s time for each of us to take that power back. We, and only we determine who we are, and what were supposed to do. Yes, like me, you may believe that parts of who you are were predetermined before you were born, but essentially you get to choose whether you engage with that aspect of Self.
I struggled with this at the beginning of this journey (and still do sometimes) because when you open yourself up spiritually there are SO many different gifts, titles, types that can guide you to your soul’s purpose on this earth.
Are you an Empath? a Yogi? A Goddess? A Hippie? An Earth Angel? A Light Worker? An Energy Healer? A Witch? A Teacher? A Spiritual Advisor? A Bohemian? A Guru? A Wanderer? A Psychic? An Intuitive Counsellor? A Clairvoyant? A Medium? A Wild Woman? A Shaman? A Medicine Man?
In the last 6 months I have opened myself up to the possibility, and explored several of these concepts. I’ll keep it at 3 for now, as these 3 were the eye-opening names I needed to see. Keep in mind that this is a snippet of what I’ve come to learn about this incredibly vast world of purpose. So please comment below, add what you feel drawn to add, or correct me if Google wronged me.
I was already familiar with the idea of being an empath. A strong sense of empathy is required to work with vulnerable people (including social work – me), so I find that a lot of people in helping professions tend to land on the spectrum of highly sensitive people and empaths. An empath is someone who deeply feels the emotions and energies of other people around them. Empaths will absorb energy from people and environments, and can actually feel the pain other people are experiencing, or have experienced just from hearing their stories. This makes us extremely sensitive and usually quite adverse to being in huge crowds.
This is why the terms “self-care” and “boundaries” are used alllllll the time in social work. And why burnout, compassion fatigue and vicarious trauma are so prevalent. I believe that empaths can be incredible in helping professions (because they have an innate ability to connect with individuals) if they are aware of the impact energy has on them, and are able to set very strong boundaries and participate in heavy self-care rituals. Unfortunately, I was doing these things, but only to a certain extent and that ruined me (or so I thought).
At the time I came to realize that my burnout – my crash – was actually a spiritual calling, I began researching my soul’s purpose. Google was so helpful.
Initially I took a quiz in Emma Mildon’s book The Soul Seacher’s Handbook. I ended up being right on the line in between Earth Angel and Light Worker, both of which resonated nicely in my heart centre.
Earth Angels are spiritual beings that are born to the earth, and called at a soul level to help humanity. They are “programmed” in a sense – to awaken to their true purpose through different life events. Earth Angels are not used to taking on physical form, as they have lived previously on the psychic and spirituals planes. They are here to help and to inspire others, and teach the message of light, love and peace. Earth Angels are on earth to help raise the vibration of the collective.
Light Workers are healers whose main purpose is to help others find their light. Light Workers hold space for others to be healed through the universal life force energy. They have often experienced their own crises in life and can acknowledge their shadow side. They have been “recharged” through a strong spiritual awakening. A Light Workers may also be called an Energy Healers or a Reiki Practitioners.
Sooo that’s where I started. Was I going around telling everyone that I’m an Earth Angel? Absolutely not. But I was inspired and I started exploring my intuition, my “abilities” if you will. I was reading about the spiritual realms and how I could connect with my true purpose. The answers that continued to be shown to me were to meditate daily, to use crystals regularly, to ask for guidance and to explore different divination tools (like pendulums or tarot cards). And to pray, or at least talk to my angels if “praying” doesn’t sit well with you – although if you are here reading about spirituality and universal energy, praying shouldn’t be what stands out as weird to you.
Every day I asked how I could serve for my higher purpose. How I could step in to my purpose and shine like I felt I needed to. I asked to be guided, shown, activated – whatever! I begged for this. And then I always said Thank you. Always.
I had some really intense spiritual moments when I begged like this. One time when I asked what my purpose was I heard “to teach”, and when I asked what I heard “about me”. Another time I pulled cards and out dropped “Workshops and Seminars” and “You are a Powerful Light Worker”. I cried… A lot. As I learn more about myself, I find my purpose shifts a little and as long as I keep going back to asking for that guidance and reassurance that I’m on the right path I am totally okay with that.
If I can offer any advice, even as a new journeyor, don’t get caught up in the labels. They were helpful to me at the beginning because it gave me direction, it helped me to understand that I wasn’t the only person going through this. Do your research, find people that inspire you but remember this is your journey. You can be/do whatever you need to. Whatever you feel drawn to. You may have gifts that have yet to be discovered. Let spirit show you where you need to be. Your potential is endless. ✌️💖