Usually I’m really strong when it comes to break ups. Yes, I have a tendency of giving people too many chances, but I am no doormat ok? This particular relationship tho had me questioning everything when it ended. I could not for the life of me decipher between my intuition, my ego and my logical mind. What is the difference between them?
Something inside me longed to be chosen, to be loved. Something else knew the relationship was over, that I deserved better, that there was a higher calling at play. Another part of me knew I could never trust her again. Knew that if I took the steps of telling my parents and friends, giving my 60 days notice at the apartment, that I wouldn’t go back on it. Or maybe I would? What if this was just a hiccup and we were actually meant to be? Was it a sign that she called just as I was writing that I’m letting go? A sign that I’m not supposed to let go? Or that I should? Or was it a test – are you really letting go or not, lets see if you answer this phone call. And obviously I answered it.
So how do we know when it’s our Intuition?
Intuition is always serving your higher purpose. It is an inner knowing, a gut feeling that comes suddenly and without any emotion or reasoning attached. Its objective and part of your higher intelligence. Some people hear their intuition, some people feel it in their heart. Intuition is just one of the ways in which I will receive spiritual guidance. I interchange intuition with heart wisdom and I believe that my angels and spirit guides will relay messages in this way.
When I’m receiving these intuitive, spiritual messages they are always loving, kind and encouraging. They are also very calming, like the instant knowing that I had that everything would be okay, that this was all happening for a reason if I could just look at the bigger picture. I will also receive signs that are perhaps better viewed as tests, and they are only there to guide me to my higher purpose. When I receive those tests I know when my intuition is screaming – like with the phone calls – Don’t Answer It!! But my ego takes over and before I know it the green button is hit.
How do we know when its our Ego?
Ego plays on your fear and anxiety. Its driven by attachment and insecurities, and often tells you you aren’t good enough for something, or that you’re going to fail. Your ego used to be there to help you, protect you but we’ve built up so many impressions throughout our lives that the ego becomes muddled and starts to over-exert its power over us, often proving to be demeaning and downright rude. Ego is built up of different archetypes and will use all of them to deter you. The ego has seen every moment you entered your shadow side, it remembers that and tries to ensure you don’t go back there, however this often prevents you from even attempting to follow the lighter side because its so fearful that you might fail.
My ego fought hard against my intuition and my logical mind every step of the way. And at times I actually understood its foolishness. I truly believed that I would marry this person, so as much as my gut told me it was over, this fairytale lived on in my ego. It told me that I wasn’t going to find any one who loved me as much. It told me I couldn’t trust myself to make decisions like ending the relationship.
How do we know when it’s our Logical Mind?
A logical thought requires reasoning. The logical mind is objective and thinks critically about situations. It is not associated with feelings or any emotional pull. Logic helps you to draw a conclusion, find truth and make decisions by using evidence; examples, facts, and even assumptions. Logic is a left brain function, opposite to creativity, imagination, emotion and intuition.
My logical mind would have been telling me that when someone cheats on you twice, it’s highly likely they’ll do it again. It also told me to give 60 days notice knowing that I couldn’t afford rent on my own. It’s smart, but when there is no feelings or emotion involved it can be rather monotonous. Still, its important to notice the differences between logic, and ego and intuition. It is easy to mistake your logical mind for either of the latter.
Um yeah – so there’s a lot that goes on in this little head of mine. It’s not always pretty and I often feel like I’m being pulled in a million different directions all at once. This still happens, and I think it always will. But when I really want to know which way to go I sit for a moment (or however long it takes) in silence and I feel. What is my heart saying? What does my gut feel? What was my intuitive response? I dont always get a definitive answer, and when I do I dont always follow it. But it is getting a heck of a lot easier for me to notice when I’m pushing against the grain. And when I’m not.
When I feel myself aligning with the universe there is no need to look back and question things. This is when you know that it’s time to finally give yourself permission to rise. Time to thank your ego and logic for their contribution and push them aside in favour of your intuition, your heart centre. ❤✌